I am aware of all the facts that are heard about this day [wiki]. But there is a strong controversy about its history. Anyway, whatever it is, there is no legal restriction either religiously or personally. Just a friendly reminder so that you will not be fool but I am not encouraging you to make others fool… However, have a good day!!!
As I am a software engineer my job is programming/coding, and I like coding very much. So I like the things that I am supposed to do in my office but I am not happy with my status. Even I don’t have any more desires also. Happiness is an inane property that can’t be achieved. Actually this is sounds very irritating. I guy who don’t have any more desires but he is not happy with his current condition is very difficult to tolerate.
Sometime I became frustrated in pursuit of void. This is very funny. Once my reporting boss asked me, “Shiblee, would you please tell me, is there anything that could make you happy?” I couldn’t answer him anything. Probably nobody likes this kind of guy but I am very witty to hide them from others so till now this does not create any big trouble for me. But the fact is how long I will be able to hide them from others?
Another, irritating thing that I notice in me is I just got frustrated very quickly. Things are like I can’t keep on trying something. Certainly this is not a good sign. So what is the obvious consequence of above twos? I am an all time frustrated guy… lol… Few days ago, Shamim asked me, “How could you manage to be frustrated all time?” Anyway, I am as I am and this is what I am and now I am trying to be happy with my unhappiness.
The very first thing came in my mind is what kind of data I will enter? If there is any data entry job from one soft format to another than why don’t they make software to those simple things as this is a simple thing to build? The data entry jobs always deal with hard format to soft format but here is no option for hard format. The second chance is data mining. Few automated product are already available with desired efficacy. And the last option could be extract information from images. But good OCR is also available in the market. Then what kind of job it is??? I am not going to say that they are fraud but it seems fraud to me. After googling, I found few guys complaining against them. Here is an Indian woman complaining against them. Here is another one.
Few sites claiming they give you the data entry job:
iNetDataEntry
This is the very first one I start investigating. First thing they claim, “We have been in business for 6 years providing data entry opportunities to individuals around the world.” But I get there registration information. This is the domain created at 2007-03-16. Here is domain information. And another thing is the domain is register to mail address tina7012@yahoo.com. Doesn’t it sound suspicious?
QuickPaidSurvey
At first glace this site looks like crack/porn site to me. The bright red text!!! This site is created at 2005-10-18. The domain is registered to privacy-105@domainprivacygroup.com. Here is the detail report about this domain. Ripoff Report does not have any information about this one. Google is somewhat confused about it so I. But surely it is scam if it charges from you for registration.
Anyway there could be thousands out there. I am aware of few programming related site like rent-a-coder, get-a-coder, get-a-free-lancer and so on. There is no such a registration fee and they charge you after you are being paid. This is the way how online job works. There is no registration fees required for online jobs!!!
Actually I was asked by someone to investigate regarding this. This is what I get. I feel like I should share with everyone so that people could aware of them.
Today I observe holiday because this year it is observed as our Independence Day. I am not sure about the fact that either it is our Independence Day or not. Our two major political parties observe this day according to their favorable date. So I observe Independence Day 26th march and 27th march alternatively for last fifteen years with five years time period. The fact is we are independent now and everybody just forgot that we are independent now and we have something to do, they are busy to establish their contribution in our liberation. In pursuit of that they forget their current duty to their country.Whenever you talk to them they start from the liberation war. I think they never imagine that they have something to do next days. It seems funny. There is myriad of problems out there and our political leaders are not interested about that. Their interest is only liberation war, they are too busy to claim that what they did in our liberation war rather than what they should do next days to take it to the zenith. Anyway, I am worse than that I am busy with my career and myself… lolz…
However, I hope Independence Day brings the true independence for you. Actually Independence Day is less significance to our generation because unless you lost your freedom you never notice what it is. Everybody has his own meaning for the word
However, I am not aware of cyber rules and regulation of my country. But I don’t have much trust on it. Because I know our policy maker very well, they don’t take decision for the sake of my homeland rather for the sake of their pockets. Even most of the cases they don’t have sound knowledge as well. Anyway, I just introduce this one with you so that you will get strength that there is someone besides you. Here is the legal right for bloggers. Mind it! Your legitimate speech is protected.
Few days before one of the businessman try to deceive me that, piracy is bless for our country and software organizations prompt piracy in third world country because they want to make us habituated with software. May lot of people agree with that? But it makes me laugh when I see people think this way. I spit on them who thinks this way. This is funny; you know no good can be carried with illegal deeds. Anyway this is not the case, basically piracy destroy our software industry. There is no software industry in my country except outsourcing just because of piracy. I feel shame when people suggest that it is bless that we are using windows for free. It is our curse man, if we don’t use windows we will build at least five for ourselves. As a software engineer you know very well that windows is not a big deal, you can build one if you get enough time and resource. Anyway forget about that.
So he (that bloody businessman) wants me to do illegal things. He ties a value for my honesty. Interesting, he offers me 500K BDT for a product that is not mine. I mean I build that product for someone else. I just told him, “do you think that this is the value of my ethics”. Anyway I don’t know why they feel these ways, this is weird. I can’t sell my ethics this way. Lastly he told me that I should encourage local businessman and prompt them. What the hell? Then I offer him, ok I will give it to you free of cost but you have to serve people free of cost as well but you can collect money for your other services. Anyway, we pros pended the deal until next Thursday. Surely I am not gonna make it.
However, I don’t think he is a good man and that is the enough reason not to give him my product free of cost. He does not deserve it. Do you think that I should give him that product free of cost? I guess you guys will agree with me.
Life is not that much easy that I guess. Lot of things can make the difference. Sometime I think is this the nature of life? Does everyone face these? Or is it happens to me only? I am becoming tired in course of cope with it. It is no more interesting to me. Thousands of problems are around there how many I will solve? I feel like, I will never be happy again, never. There is a movie “the Pursuit of Happiness” the ending dialogue is, “This part of my life is very little part called happiness”. You know this is true for everyone. The happy part of our life is so short that we never notice how fast it went away. Every day I got at least two message from my friends saying “Hey, life sucks”. Is it normal? Sometime I feel our generation is weaker than our previous. We are not strong enough to cope with life.
May there is something wrong. I don’t know where and what but I know there is something. Rassel suggests me thousands time, “Never say Life sucks”. But I can’t because it sucks!!!
It’s time for a new version. At last my previous version find some success and that encourage me for the next version. In this version I am going to be ready for the migration. And I will try to be a bit more emotionless. I don’t wanna be emotional fool anymore. One more thing that I noticed is I should be wittier in business conversation. I guess the UI is fine; I will try to achieve more fat. This is a minor release and this one takes me toward version 2.0. Anyway life is going fine…
I strongly believe, “I am the creation of time”. Certainly there is a mathematical function that maps times to me. The word “I” is composed of two things, my physical existence and my thoughts. Let’s talk about thoughts first. The mental evaluation or mental growth of a human being completely depends upon his environment. How I react in certain situation is depended on my experience and my way of thinking. My experience is solely a function of time. Now what about our thinking patterns? Our thinking patterns inherit few things from out society and ancestors. And others are guided by the time. Now our society is composed of few individuals. According to mathematical induction I can prove that they are the function of time. So my reaction in certain situation could be represented by a function of time. My thoughts are nothing but the composition of my reactions.
Human beings are very adaptive in nature. They can survive almost in any condition with the help of evaluation. Evaluation is something depends upon time and environment. According to the big bang theory our environment is a function of time so the evaluation can be solely represented by a function of time. As my physical structures are partially adapted from evaluation it has very close relationship with time. Another part of my physical structures are taken from heredity. From the mathematical induction as my heredity is a function of time so these parts are also related to time again. The rest depends on my food habit and weather condition. My food habit is function of evaluation and time that means it is a function of time solely. So, I am a function of time.
The fraction of moment can makes every thing different. I will be a completely different man if you change my birth time by fraction of moment. It may sound funny but this is true.
I asked few aged guys what is your realization from your life. Most of them come up with same answer, “I don’t know how I have passed my whole life.” This is true even I also wonder how I have passed my twenty five years. Do you ever notice how much year you have passed? Now-a-days I asked myself what I did last twenty five years. Truly I can never come up with satisfactory answer. We all know that time is flying what we don’t know is how fast. Every moment make older than previous. Sometime I wonder what the life is. This is life, this is life what I am living, what I will live and what I have passed. We can’t remember when it starts and we don’t know when it ends.
I am flying… I am flying… I am flying… The most beautiful day in my life. Ask why? Probably you can guess why. I am happier than ever before. I don’t have many things to tell about it. I made it… I got it… it’s an awesome experience I never express it in my word… It’s a moment that comes very often… Its an awful experience in my life…
Long days ago I had read a book about George Washington Carver. It was about his life; unfortunately I can’t remember the name. There was something that struck my mind so deeply to forget. Nothing big it was about his working policy or philosophy. I forget the exact quote it something like “Nobody will prepare everything for you rather you have to prepare everything from whatever you have” in other way “You have to start from whatever you have”. We know this truth but still we wait for favorable condition. This is like I would start a new company if I were a billionaire. He tries to say this is not the right approach you have to start from whatever you have to be a billionaire and one day you will be then you should start a new company. That’s the truth that’s the reality. Whatever we have is the reality whatever we might have is the stupid wish. If you truly feel that you need something then try to achieve that from your current assets do not wait for someone to bring those things for you. If you wanna start, start from whatever you had, start now...
I start loving my blog. I spend at least few moment everyday for my blog. Sometime I write something, sometime read other blogs write comments and so on; actually no big reason for doing this. This is just wasting my time with reading or writing little garbage. Well not all reads are garbage but surely all writes are. Ok, no moribund comments. I have few technical posts. Mostly they are based on work and personal interest, I spend few of times to find out them and I don’t want others to spend that time for the same reason. This is also a good repository for me; I dump all those things I don’t want to forget. That’s all about technical posting.
Probably I write most about my life style. I can’t remember why I had started about life style but I love them most. My blog works well as a window to see inside my life. If you are interested about me then it can help you a great deal. I know very well that there is not much interesting things in my life but it has something, something different from you so will get a different view about life from my blog. Actually I didn’t have any good intension for that.
Second most frequent type is my thoughts. In this case I just want to share my thoughts with every one so that you can correct me if I am wrong. This is like I am talking with you about my thoughts and ideas. I don’t know either they are innovative or not but they are my thoughts. I share my dreams in my thoughts. You may like it or may not but it creates something inside you.
I am a packrat in my personal life so as here. I post few items that are collected from different places. I just want keep them that’s why I post them here. At the same time I share those things with you guys. I collect few lyrics those I like most. Music is something I like most so I just put them here.
Above all it is a good company. It mollifies my pain of loneliness. Until now it brings very few inspirations for me too. It brings few cyber friends as well unlike social networking sites. I spend my lonely time with my blogs as well as others.
I have few funny philosophies like we all are here for very short period of time. Why should we make it more complicated with such relations? Does it really mean anything in our eternal journey? I know nobody can answer these questions. May be it is mandatory to keep the harmony in the society. Eventually one day I will get married but still I don’t find any good reason except sex. Is it worthy to get married only for sex?
N.B. May be it is true for me but not for you; but the question is do you know which is true for you?
This is part of my life is called patience; I am just waiting, waiting and waiting. I am waiting for something miraculous; I am waiting for a new Shiblee may be a something else; may be waiting for Godot. The reality I don’t know why I am waiting for. But the fact is I start enjoying my time. I know miraculous things never gonna happen and Shiblee never gonna be changed. But it gives me the dream, the dream that never gonna be happen but it is something. It is something that keeps me alive. Actually I have nothing except few dreams. Yea… I am enjoying my time.
You know, patience is something that has strong addictive capability. I guess most of peoples known for their patience actually addicted to patience. It’s like heroin, once you get it you will go for more and more and more… toward infinity. That’s why patience is passion. However, many famous figures talked about passion, most of the case they encourage to be patient even holy Quran tried so.
Another interesting thing I wanna mention, Is there anything beyond the limit of patience? Other way does patience have any limit? I think no. I told it before, it’s like drug, and always drives you for more. One more thing I strongly believe, “The borderline between patience and laziness is very vague”. I am waiting for the day that never gonna come, I am waiting for a song that never gonna sung, I am waiting for Shiblee who wanna be changed but never gonna be…
This is my second year after my undergrad in professional software development. In my software development career I have worked with lot of people. My realization is every software programmer is a good con artist. At least you have to be a good con artist to be successful in this industry. You must have the approach that you can do anything. The truth is everyone can do everything in this industry. In this industry nothing is unachievable. There are always thousands of ways to carried out something and most of the cases millions of prudent man prior I solve these and they are eagerly waiting for me. Just I have to find them nothing else. No big deal no big challenge unless any kind of research is involved. Unless you are not in any pioneer organization like Google you will never find any challenge in this industry. We are just facing pseudo research.
From my experience I saw everybody can solve a problem but the way they approach to a problem is different and it makes a big difference among them. How you deal with the problem is important not how you solve. Your solution will be an obvious consequence of your approach and so the total required time. In most of the case nobody is worried how the problem is solved rather they are worried about either it is solved or not.
I like to share my very first day experience at my office. I was there for part time job. I went there and my boss asked me, hey guy do you know XML file? Truly, I never heard the word “XML” before that day but I heard the word “File”. But I thought it could be a file type that I don’t know. Well, I replied, I don’t have that much experience about XML file but may be I can solve your problem. He told me that here is the XML file for configuring an ip address and port to connect to a server. So guys, I guess you can imagine it was a pretty small XML file. :-) I just opened that file as file stream and search for the word <ipaddress> and </ipaddress> and the same for port. After that I was asked to parse a big XML file. At that time I was not aware of standard XML parsers, So, I build one for myself. That is the start of my career.
This is how I approach a problem. I am not gonna say this is right or this is wrong but this approach works very well for me. I am still working as a software engineer and I guess I am doing well. My boss is very happy with my works and the clients as well. So, be a better con artist and you will be a better software engineer.
Hitler, probably the most hatred name after Second World War. But truth is I admire him very much. Well, I have every right for that but do I have any good reason for that? There is not much good reason in favor of Hitler. Most uttered one is probably his patriotism. I never heard anybody doubt about that. As far I know it was beyond any question. I am not that much patriot, actually it is not possible for me to reach that level of patriotism comparable to his.Ok, what makes him so special to me? I guess his juvenile dreams and his pursuit after his dreams. May be its sound funny but this is a big reason to me. I had red a lot about him. I believe there was a childish mind inside him that’s help him to dream anything even impossible(s). I admire that childish mind, I admire that childish courage. He was a man full of dreams probably that’s why he was a man full of lives. Dream big otherwise you cannot do big. Dream is the fuel of life.
He is my idol from my very childhood. I don’t know somehow this man creates a great respect for himself inside me. None of my mentors are fond of Hitler. Anyway, this is not a big deal why I am his fan? If you hate him just because he kills millions, don’t forget to mention the other names beside him.
If this is the last of your life what are the things you like to do? This is not an easy question, I guess. Unless you have some experience very closer to death you can’t answer this. I think I don’t have such experience, except once I had fallen down from a mountain. At that time I did not get much time to think about this. Now-a-days sometime I think what I would do if I die today. Actually I don’t get many things to do except confession. What does it mean? I know very well that I am not a righteous person but I don’t have so many sins as well.
Well, what are these confessions about? I just want to say sorry to my mom and dad for my deeds and I want to tell them how much I love them. Is there anything else to do? Yes, I want to see pixie for the last time. Anything else? No I guess not. Is there any wish? Yes of course. I want to live a day on my own, only for myself not for anyone else and I want to see the whole world on my own eyes. Is there anything to say to anyone? I guess not. That’s it; pretty simple life.
However, the truth is death will come without any augury so I will not get much time do so. My discontented soul will scream for its desires. Probably this is called life.
You may think that why it is not close at Sunday? Good question but unfortunately I don’t have that answer. I am not the decision maker so I am not the right guy to ask this question… lolz… Anyway this is not our topic we talked about Sunday. However, Sunday is a motionless, sluggish day for me…
Sunday is the day of the week between Saturday and Monday. In the Judaeo-Christian tradition it is the first day of the week, but from mid-20th century it is often counted as the seventh day of the week. Sunday is named after Sunne (Sól), Germanic goddess of the sun. Christians usually called Sunday the Lord's Day (because they observed it as a weekly memorial of Jesus Christ's resurrection). Sunday has also been called "the Eighth Day" (because of the Roman Catholic belief that Christ's resurrection on the day following the seventh-day Sabbath is a portal to timeless eternity that transcends the seven-day weekly cycle). In most of the Indian Languages, the word for Sunday is Adivar or Ravivar, with Adi (Ah'-Dee) or Ravi being the Sanskrit names for the Sun [wiki].
I become a bit tetchier these days. Another thing I notice, most of the time my reflections are random for the mimic situation. Sometime I feel like I will destroy everything. In my life I always try not to hurt anyone but the irony is most of the people of my surroundings are hurt by me. Probably this is my fate - one of the culprit erroneous parameter along with other twos.
Today I hurt a guy that I never thought. Even I never imagined in my dream that I will hurt her. Anyway shit happens… Nothing big, she just told me Roshik (Jester), I don’t know why it gives me goose bump, I loose my temperament completely, so the obvious repercussions!!! This is the first time… she replied, and I just answered every thing has its own first time… funny… anyway let future handle the rest of the things.
I feel like I need a psychiatrist again. Sometime my rage went out my limit, I just shiver. I am just helpless. I am trying to comeback hopefully I will make it... My life sucks... my life sucks... my life sucks...
I start my blog probably at 2006. But not at that time I never imagine I will write every day. Still I don’t think that I have to write every day, I write when I feel I have something to say to someone to everyone. The thing is this, this happen very frequently now… lolz… Well this is not a big deal. I think human being inherently search for outcome, doesn't it? May be… Then what is the outcome of my blog? probably nothing, probably a lot. The best thing is I have successfully encouraged few of my friends about the blog. I am least bothered about my reader because they are inherently reader, otherwise they will not read my blog because it doesn’t have anything that can make anyone a reader. In the former case I create something in someone’s inside, that’s it. That is the most important thing. Yes of course I expect more reader probably everyone expects more traffic. And it is true that it makes my writings content when I saw that people coming to my blog and read my thoughts but that are not my achievements. Anyway come to the point; I am happy to let you know Rassel Raihan start blogging. No doubt most of my friends are very bright but he has something very special, something very very rare. He is a dreamer from dreamland.
If there is nothing with own nature there can be nothing with other nature, something which is dependent for its existence and nature on something else which has own nature. Furthermore, if there is neither own-nature nor other-nature, there cannot be anything with a true, substantially existent nature. If there is no true existent there cannot be no non-existent (true existent has gone out of existent). Nothing will prevail for those in whom emptiness will not prevail, while everything will prevail for whom emptiness prevails.
Therefore all dharmas (One of the basic, minute elements from which all things are made) are like a dream or magical illusion. There is something there in experience, and one can describe it well in terms of dharmas, so it is wrong to deny these exist; yet they don’t have substantial existence either.
(Nagarjuna)
A God becomes a Man, Jesus…
A Man becomes a God, Gautama…
(If there is nothing with own nature there can be nothing with other nature)
Eightfold path is the way to achieve nirvana, these are
Right understanding,
Right thought,
Right speech,
Right action,
Right livelihood,
Right effort,
Right mindfulness, and
Right concentration.
(Buddhism)
I watch two movie in a row “The Shawshank Redemption” and “Papillon”. Both are on the context of prison break. And the theme is same, Hope may be Dream. Does it really mean anything? I don’t know. I had a favorite quote “If you can dream it, then you can make it“. In my office there is a big board for random thoughts and we write our thoughts, dreams. Everything goes there Dreams, Thoughts, Visions, Funs and everything. Long Ago I wrote my favorite quote on that board. Someone reply me “Depends on who is dreaming”. I was full of energy and at that time it was difficult for me absorb it so I came with another reply “If you can’t perceive it then it is not for you”. Anyway that fight continues couple of week.
Dream, dream, dream is good thing unless it hurts you. There are very few dreams that will not hurt you most them hurt you because dreams are dreamed to be broken. Dream keep you going dream makes you depressed dream hurts you most but you should keep on it. You have to dream if you want to be alive, otherwise you are dead. Only dead man can’t dream maybe they can, we don’t know. It is not necessary to bring them all in this fragile planet keep few of them for yourself for your heart where nobody couldn’t see them. Love your dreams, you will love yourself. So keep dreaming… lolz…
