Saturday, May 9, 2015

Don't Stop Believin

Just a small town girl
Livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train
Goin' anywhere
Just a city boy
Born and raised in South Detroit
He took the midnight train
Goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
The smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching
In the night
Streetlight people
Livin' just to find emotion
Hidin' somewhere in the night

Workin' hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice
Just one more time
Some will win
Some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching
In the night
Streetlight people
Livin' just to find emotion
Hidin' somewhere in the night

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people
Don't stop believin'
Hold on
Streetlight people
Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people

[Journey]

Monday, May 4, 2015

Becoming a tree...

I never owned any property in my life. Owning a property always felt like a property of trees to me. I never thought I would own one. Now, I own one. I became a tree officially. Every time I think of the house, I feel like a tree. Now, I will not be able to move, I am attached to the land somehow. Soon, I will spread my branches and other stuff too. I am yet to see what next. I love life, it never ceases to surprise me.

Separate Ways

Here we stand
Worlds apart
Hearts broken in two, two, two
Sleepless nights
Losing ground
I'm reaching for you, you, you

Feelin' that it's gone
Can't change your mind
If we can't go on
To survive the tide
Love divides

Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
How we touched
And went our separate ways
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you
Though we touched
And went our separate ways

Troubled times
Caught between confusions and pain, pain, pain
Distant eyes
Promises we made were in vain
In vain, vain

If you must go
I wish you love
You'll never walk alone
Take care my love
Miss you love

Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
How we touched
And went our separate ways
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you
Though we touched
And went our separate ways

Oooooooooh...........
Someday love will find you
Break those chains that bind you
One night will remind you
If he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
You know I still love you

I still love you, girl
I really love you, girl
And if he ever hurts you
True love won't desert you
Nooooooooo..............
Nooooooooo..............

[Journey]

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Reading & Writing

I have been thinking of getting back into the having of reading and writing again. It's been a long I didn't write anything. I am missing writing part of Shiblee. Somebody once told me the best way to write a journal is "write as if nobody is reading." I don't know what is the purpose of writing if there is no one to read but it seems like a good idea for blogging.

I have not read any single book in last six months! That's terrifying. When I look back and how did I not miss reading? I couldn't come up with the answer. I think my living room is stealing a fair share of my time. I am not a TV person but still I spend a good part of the day in front of it. Not watching tv but all sorts of random crap; and there youtube too! Which is the television of new generation. 

What do I do then? 1) Read random crap, 2) Watch random youtube videos, 3) Check smart phones, 4) Play games, 5) Family time, 6) Household maintenance, 6) Cooking, etc. Let's see, "Read random crap"? I don't consider it reading. It is probably pseudo-reading, it gave me the fulfillment of being on the bleeding edge but in reality it is full of shit. And most of it is not useful at all. Now that online publishing is super easy, anybody and everybody (including me) can have their own publisher and publish all sorts of garbage. There is not much point in spending time on those.

"Watch random youtube crap" This is the age of internet and youtube is a great way to learn things. But in reality very few of them has any depth at all. I am not all against them but I think I should be seriously limit my time on those. "Check smartphone" is the disease of our generation. I don't know what other people do on their smart phone when they check it, but 95% I do nothing useful. And the useful parts are shattered all over the places. Smartphone saves out time by making live easy but snitched all those time by hyper context switching. I need be more diligent about this smart devices, I feel like they are out-smarting myself. 

"Playing games" - this is the new thing. In last few weeks I spend a fair amount of time playing games. I am not sure which category it belongs to but compared other three I think it is better use of time. I consider rest are useful and super good use of time. Some of them actually made me learn things and solve problems. It seems like I need to cut down my "chaotic use of device time" into more consolidated effective use. I want to go back my habit of reading and writing again. No more random crap.

Saturday, February 7, 2015

Firework

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep six feet under?
Screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
As you shoot across the sky...

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colours burst
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

You don't have to feel like a wasted space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
As you shoot across the sky...

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colours burst
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through...

'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
As you shoot across the sky...

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colours burst
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

[Katy Perry]

Monday, October 20, 2014

Dark Souls

There is real beauty in Dark Souls. It reveals that life is more suffering than pleasure, more failure than success, and that even the momentary relief of achievement is wiped away by new levels of difficulty. It is also a testament to our persistence in the face of that suffering, and it offers the comfort of a community of other players all stuck in the same hellish quagmire. Those are good qualities. That is art. And you can get all of that from the first five hours of Dark Souls. The remaining 90 or so offer nothing but an increasingly nonsensical variation on that experience. - Michael Thomsen
I was researching about the game Dark souls yesterday and found somebody shared the above quote about Dark Souls. Forget about game, I was moved the view itself. "life is more suffering than pleasure, more failure than success" - I guess it was always like that, I just didn't realize it entirely. Again "momentary relief of achievement is wiped away by new levels of difficulty" sure it is. Life is surely all about that. And then "It is also a testament to our persistence in the face of that suffering," - this was too much!

Friday, August 29, 2014

MSN Messenger is shutting down

There is nothing new in that news. But this morning I opened verge and saw the message. I was thinking man I am getting old. This is the beginning of the end of our era. I remember my internet life begin around the same time as MSN messenger. I had numerous moments with MSN messenger. I even have MSN address that I still use. Not many people use that msn.com address. I believe Microsoft started using hotmail.com around 2001 or something like that.
I remember it was annoying many ways but it was still one of the best out there. Chatting gonna be pretty much obsolete within few years. Mobile messaging gonna take the place. That's why we see piles of messaging applications out there. Life goes on in a circle.

Sunday, August 17, 2014

My first pair of Sunglasses

I never used sunglasses in my life. For some sunglasses used to give me weird headache. So, I avoided them all along. If I ever really needed one, I used to go for a cheap one and sort of used them as a disposable item. I had been in Oklahoma where we had 90 straight days in a year with temperature over 100F and hot melting sun, I grew up in Dhaka where sun shines almost 300 days a year but I never felt the need of a pair of sunglasses. I didn't even feel the necessity of a pair of sunglasses in Florida where you hardly see anybody's eyes. Life had a bigger surprise for me, I moved to Seattle where the sun almost never shines and guess what? I start using sunglasses. This summer I had to buy a pair of sunglasses because I couldn't not stand the sunlight. What a irony! You are only scared of the things, you were deprived for.

I need sunlight not sunglasses.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

R.I.P Robin Williams

I don't understand this world at all. Robin Williams had depression! A comedian! Mark (my colleague) was talking to me the other day about ancient philosophers. Somehow he came to this conclusion that the only profession that is comparable to ancient philosopher is modern day comedian. I guess he is right. I was reading somewhere before that ancient philosophers were depressed. They were depressed because they knew how little they knew about everything and that used to bother them. I guess life is eerie very eerie.

Friday, August 1, 2014

Google Activity Report

Google activity report is a total crap. It shows in my activity report that I walked 1 hour last month and 0 hours of cycling! I did at least 10 miles per day. And the most funny thing is I did use bicycle routing on google map couple of times. My location service was always on. I know because I used an app that tracks my route and generate a report at the end. I was not fast at all, about 10 mph. I know Google did not consider it as walk either because I just have 1 hour of walking in my report.

Google you are better than this. I don't need a random number generator at the end of every month. Give me something that works.