Saturday, February 7, 2015

Firework

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep six feet under?
Screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
As you shoot across the sky...

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colours burst
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

You don't have to feel like a wasted space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe a reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
As you shoot across the sky...

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colours burst
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through...

'Cause, baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
As you shoot across the sky...

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colours burst
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

[Katy Perry]

Monday, October 20, 2014

Dark Souls

There is real beauty in Dark Souls. It reveals that life is more suffering than pleasure, more failure than success, and that even the momentary relief of achievement is wiped away by new levels of difficulty. It is also a testament to our persistence in the face of that suffering, and it offers the comfort of a community of other players all stuck in the same hellish quagmire. Those are good qualities. That is art. And you can get all of that from the first five hours of Dark Souls. The remaining 90 or so offer nothing but an increasingly nonsensical variation on that experience. - Michael Thomsen
I was researching about the game Dark souls yesterday and found somebody shared the above quote about Dark Souls. Forget about game, I was moved the view itself. "life is more suffering than pleasure, more failure than success" - I guess it was always like that, I just didn't realize it entirely. Again "momentary relief of achievement is wiped away by new levels of difficulty" sure it is. Life is surely all about that. And then "It is also a testament to our persistence in the face of that suffering," - this was too much!

Friday, August 29, 2014

MSN Messenger is shutting down

There is nothing new in that news. But this morning I opened verge and saw the message. I was thinking man I am getting old. This is the beginning of the end of our era. I remember my internet life begin around the same time as MSN messenger. I had numerous moments with MSN messenger. I even have MSN address that I still use. Not many people use that msn.com address. I believe Microsoft started using hotmail.com around 2001 or something like that.
I remember it was annoying many ways but it was still one of the best out there. Chatting gonna be pretty much obsolete within few years. Mobile messaging gonna take the place. That's why we see piles of messaging applications out there. Life goes on in a circle.

Sunday, August 17, 2014

My first pair of Sunglasses

I never used sunglasses in my life. For some sunglasses used to give me weird headache. So, I avoided them all along. If I ever really needed one, I used to go for a cheap one and sort of used them as a disposable item. I had been in Oklahoma where we had 90 straight days in a year with temperature over 100F and hot melting sun, I grew up in Dhaka where sun shines almost 300 days a year but I never felt the need of a pair of sunglasses. I didn't even feel the necessity of a pair of sunglasses in Florida where you hardly see anybody's eyes. Life had a bigger surprise for me, I moved to Seattle where the sun almost never shines and guess what? I start using sunglasses. This summer I had to buy a pair of sunglasses because I couldn't not stand the sunlight. What a irony! You are only scared of the things, you were deprived for.

I need sunlight not sunglasses.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

R.I.P Robin Williams

I don't understand this world at all. Robin Williams had depression! A comedian! Mark (my colleague) was talking to me the other day about ancient philosophers. Somehow he came to this conclusion that the only profession that is comparable to ancient philosopher is modern day comedian. I guess he is right. I was reading somewhere before that ancient philosophers were depressed. They were depressed because they knew how little they knew about everything and that used to bother them. I guess life is eerie very eerie.

Friday, August 1, 2014

Google Activity Report

Google activity report is a total crap. It shows in my activity report that I walked 1 hour last month and 0 hours of cycling! I did at least 10 miles per day. And the most funny thing is I did use bicycle routing on google map couple of times. My location service was always on. I know because I used an app that tracks my route and generate a report at the end. I was not fast at all, about 10 mph. I know Google did not consider it as walk either because I just have 1 hour of walking in my report.

Google you are better than this. I don't need a random number generator at the end of every month. Give me something that works.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Get back on the saddle

I have just realized why I don't have anything to write. It is because I don't do anything public. All are corporate proprietary stuff :( I would like to talk about stuff but that would require writing a document, send the draft, get the clearance, blah, blah, blah. Anyway, let's talk about personal life.

I picked up biking after a long period of time. I think all credit goes to Hasib. He was talking about the biking last year and I was kind of convinced that I should do it. But then I came to Seattle and looking for right bike and wait, wait and wait. Finally this year I decided, you know what, I am gonna get one, no matter what. So I got a pretty basic bike from Schwinn.

It is a network hybrid, nothing fancy but I am loving ride. Seattle is one of the bike friendly city, may not be comparable to Portland but lot of people ride bike here. I guess that might have some influences too. Anyway, I almost forgot how fun biking was. I am enjoying every moment of it. I am hoping it will bring back some part of fitness. My fitness is really struggling. I have sort of abused my body for so many years. Its no wonder my fitness is fighting back. Biking is my first tiny step on the way of reclaiming my fitness. I hope someday I will reclaim all of its glory.

I am also planning to upgrade to clipless pedal sometime next week. Let's see how that goes. I have heard that you to fall at least once when you start using clipless. I hope my fall will not be too damaging. I am hoping this will boost my ride a little. I am pretty excited about my new biking venture.

Friday, July 4, 2014

A verbose 4th of July morning...

It seems like blogging is becoming less popular after mobile revolution. Interesting, now we have so many ways to write and so many apps to write with, but it became less popular. Or maybe it just me, start writing blog after few months and feel like everybody is doing the same. Anyway, happy 4th of July everyone.

I was browsing woot.com this morning and at the bottom of the page it ask for a survey. And the question was what is the best part of 4th of July? Fireworks? Day off? And few other things. I guess its day off for me now. Its always fun to have one extra day off.

I feel like I am writing after a long time. Blogging has always been fun for me. But nowadays it is hard to find things to blog about. So, I stopped writing. I am going thru that part of the life when nothing happens other than ageing. Sometime I feel like this will continue for some years and at some point I will realize I am an old man now. I have lived my life. I will start giving advise. It surprising human that most of the human lifes are utterly similar. Among all the diversity and friction we see among human being, they are just ridiculously shallow. Deep down inside we all are same. Not biologically but mentally and how we live our life.

Life is the most amazing thing I have. It always surprises me like it surprises rest of the 7 billion people on earth. After all these surprises I don't understand how come they are same? Is not it amazing!

Well enough of stupid rumblings. I am gonna go ant watch the stupid Germany vs France game. This will be the first time I will cheer for France. Hope they will be able to pull it forward.

Friday, May 2, 2014

All of Me

What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

...'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

...'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

...'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

[John Legend]

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Blogging!

It has been a while I don't write anything. Well, part of the reason is half of my day I spend at my office about which I cannot or shouldn't talk about. And rest of the half I do meaningless stuff. So meaningless that when I go to bed, I feel pity for myself. It is so meaningless there is nothing to talk about them. Technically, I spend my time on stuff that cannot talk about or there is nothing to talk about them at all.

However, I noticed one thing though. I am getting older. I getting more and more mature day by day. And you know what people around me appreciate the change. I am not sure whether I do or not. But anyway, changes are good, they keep us going. I should not be scared of them I should be embrace them and take advantage of them. One thing I learn from my friend Peter Wirthumer is not taking advantage of the moment is painful. I should be start feeling that pain. I have seen him restless in pursuit of the moment and that keeps him going. Anyway, life is good.

Well, finally we moved to a new Condo. It is a much bigger place not like the old one where both of us had to cramble into a tiny 600sq-ft apartment with all of our furniture and amazon boxes. It is in Bellevue though, so I have to commute a little for office. I am fine with that. I believe bigger place makes you think bigger. Let see if that helps us at all.