Saturday, January 31, 2009

আপন মানুষদের কাছে ফিরে যাবো!

আপন মানুষদের কাছে ফিরে যাবো

এখানে মানুষ থাকে, এই নির্দয় নিষ্প্রাণ দেশে,
এই লৌহপুরীতে?
এই শহরের ভিড়ে পাখিদের ওড়াউড়ি নেই,
গাভীর হাম্বা রব কখনো শুনি না;
শুধু অচেনা মানুষের কোলাহল, গাড়ির কর্কশ শব্দ

বাড়ির উঠানে এখানে ওঠে না চাঁদ, নদীময় তারাভরা
দেখি না আকাশ
জুড়ায় না ক্লান্ত দেহ দখিনা বাতাস

এখানে মানুষেরা এক সাথে হেঁটে যায় কেই কাউকে চেনে না, মানুষ
এখানে থাকে?
ঢের হয়েছে বিদ্যা, ঢের হয়েছে প্রাপ্তি, তবু যেটুকু জীবন
আছে, বুকে নিয়ে
এবার আপন মানুষদের কাছে ফিরে যাবো, গলা
ছেড়ে ডাকবো বাহার কাকা,
কানু ভাই তোমরা কোথায়?
ছি, এখানে মানুষ থাকে, এই সোনার খাঁচায়, ইটের জঙ্গলে,
বন্দিশালায়
হোটেলের বদ্ধ ঘরে, ফ্ল্যাট বাড়ির চার দেয়ালের মধ্যে
বৈদ্যুতিক আলোর এই অন্ধকারে,
এই স্নেহহীন, মায়াহীন, জলবায়ু শুন্য জতুগৃহে?
কতোদিন শুনি না ঘুঘুর ডাক, রাখালের বাঁশি,
টানা বাতাসের শব্দ
দেখিনা সবুজ মাঠ, উধাও দিগন্ত
ঘরের পিছনের ছোট্ট জংলায় দোয়েলের উড়াউড়ি,
কোথাও দেখিনা একটি ধানের শীষে গঙ্গাফড়িং,
লাউ জাংলার পাশে স্থলপদ্ম,
এখানে কী পেয়েছি প্রচুর সুখ, পেয়েছি প্রচুর শান্তি,

এবার অর্ধেক মানুষ আমি খুইয়ে এখানে
সব অনুভুতি, শুদ্ধতা, আনন্দ
সেই আপন মানুষদের কাছে ফিরে যাবো।
সেই বন্ধুগাছ, বন্ধুপাখি, ডোবার কচুরি ফুল,
সেই কাদামাটি জলে ভেজা বাড়ি
কাজলাদিদির কথা লেখা সেই পাঠ্যবই, তোমাদের কারো
কিছুই জানি না;
পাখিরা যেমন আপন পাখিদের সাথে মিশে যায়
আমিও তেমনি আপন মানুষদের মাঝে মিশে যাবো
প্রিয় বৃক্ষ, প্রিয় নদী, আপন মানুষ।

[মহাদেব সাহা]

Something, you can't deny!!!

African-Americans and South-Asians

Racism is one of the effective terms in modern business world. In my sense, racism is everlasting thing because business people never let it go. This is a very effective thing for business, how could they let it go, they will foster it. I heard from a sociality major girl, racism is not all about majority and minority; it is about how much power you possess. As far I am concern, I am not a kind of racist. How could I be a racist when I don’t have any power at all… hahaha…

When I came to united states, a few of my older mates suggested: if you need a help, ask a white not black; I don’t why? Few South-Asian in school suggested, try to avoid black, I have no idea why? Two or three Bangladeshi guys are robbed here. They say, “Blacks are the robbers”. It is true they are robbed by black people but they have two white with them. Those Bangladesh guys completely forget the whites but they still possess hatred for blacks, I have no idea why? I can say thousands more examples of that. So far, what I feel is: there is a very bitter relation between Blacks and South-Asians. It is hard to describe why?

For some reason, South-Asians can’t tolerate Blacks. But I don’t have the idea about what the other party thinks. I have met couple black people here and they are very, very nice to me but I don’t know the mass opinion. But in a very vague term, Black people seems very cool to me. They are least bothered what other people think about them. I feeling is they are least bothered about South-Asians. I am just curious why South-Asians posses such feelings about Blacks.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Race warming...

In recent days global warming is one of the well known topics. The climate is changing and almost every places going through it. It is not that every part of the world is warming. Some part of the world will be colder than previous due to global warming too. Anyway global warming is not my forte and I am not interested to talk about it. Rather, I am interested about something else.

When I was a kid, I used to read sociology. There was an interesting remark, “People from colder place usually more industrious than warmer.” I don’t have any idea it is true or not. But I feel it might have some truths in it because everything is difficult in a colder place. I came to school today by walk and it took almost one hour. It was cool walking over the snow fall, everything was just white. But it really requires more energy and passion than usually it does.

Interestingly, the human races in the colder regions are more advanced than the warmer. Maybe, it is because of my old read or maybe something else. But there is a relationship between weather and human races. I was just curious what happen when the weather will be changed due to global warming. Does global warming change the human races: like an industrious nation will become idle while an idle one might be the industrious one? Interesting question, huh…

Monday, January 26, 2009

Tears of God

Some had on the Rebel grey, Some the Union blue,
They were fathers,sons and brothers, men like me and you.
Engaged in heavy battle, till there came that cloudy draw,
When silence took the battlefield men just stood in awe.

Some say it was the cannon smoke some say the Northern lights,
That cast a ghostly image over Fredericksburg that night,
Some say it was God's spirit lookin' o'er the bloody sod,
And that rainbow mist that filled the sky, was the tears of God.

Both sides read his Holy Word and believed it in thier hearts,
But the common ground He'd blessed them with had now been torn apart.
Covered by the blood they shed so many lost their lives,
The fight on that Virginia hill was enough to make Him cry.

Some say it was the cannon smoke some say the Northern lights,
That cast a ghostly image over Fredericksburg that night,
Some say it was God's spirit looking o'er the bloody sod,
And that rainbow mist that filled the sky, was the tears of God.

Some say it was the cannon smoke some say the Northern lights,
that cast a ghostly image over Fredericksburg that night,
Some say it was God's spirit lookin o'er the bloody sod,
And that Rainbow mist that filled the sky, was the tears of God.

[Josh Turner' 2007][Youtube]

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Laptop!

Laptop! I have a weid realtionship with laptop computers. Somehow it is not usual. Last time when I bought my hp pavillion 2000, it was obligatory. Kind of, no way without buying that. I was never been happy with it. Anyway that bloody piece of shit is dumping my ass from the very fiirst time I had stated using that. Its mother board burned out at the very first time I connected that with a projector. Luckily it was in the warrenty period and I got the mother board replaced. And finally this time that shit burn out appearently without any reason. I switched it off in the morning and went to school. When get back at the evening it starts giving me one long beep and two short beeps. Holy shit! Finally I sort out that I have to replace the mother board again but this time I have to pay 400 bucks. This is absurd, I don’t think it is a good idea to spent a single penny on that. I would never recommend anyone to buy HP pavillion series. Laptop sucks!

I can’t think of my life without a laptop these days. This is my one and only portal toward the world. So I have bought a new one again. This is absurd. I hate it, I hate electronics but at the same time I have no wayout as well.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Apologize!

I am sorry for the irregular posting but I really can’t mange much time for it. I have been just making tiny posts to keep it rolling. This semester is kind of crazy all the advance courses with lot of paperworks, presenations and other stuffs. I am guessing I will be overwhelmed after this semester. And as far I am concern maybe I am bearing ten times more loads than last semster. So I am guessing I could not make it on regular basis. But surely I will do it because I love to do it. I hope those who expect me to put something here will forgive me. Another thing is: I made a mess :( that made me more busy than I suppose to. Those who know about it and still confused; I am quite serious about it and I want it to continue and those who doesn’t know about it; I happen to be in a relationship.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Keep your mind wide open

I had never been an internet guy. I start using internet almost ten years ago. I have started becoming online twenty four seven since 2005. But I had never concentrated on social networking sites and anonymous chats. But now these are my only source of entertainment. I have met lot of folks within last couple of days. They are from different cultures and countries. I loved to meet them. They offer me wide variety. Funny!!! Life is an interesting thing. You never know what the hell are waiting for you. But the thing is I am learning lot of things. The best tips I have got when I came to US is “keep your mind wide open”. Try to face every things happening in your life with open mind. Life is beautiful! Try to believe life is beautiful no matter where you are whatever happen to you, remember life is beautiful. And it is you got the responsibilities to make it so.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Human power

I was kind of shocked today. We have severe power problem in Bangladesh but we got huge surplus of population. So, one day shehab and I end up with an idea, we will produce power from human. Rikshaw is a unique vehicle in Bangladesh. Our idea was simple: we will mount thousands of cycle in a building and generators will be connected with them. So instead of moving forward the cyclers will rotate the shaft of the generator by cycling and produce power. Remuneration will be paid on hourly basis, in this way our rikshaw pullers will get a new job. It was a good fun thinking such weird idea and costing the whole thing. As far I can remember we estimated the cost of whole thing and power cost was 2/4tk per unit or something like that. Do you think it is absurd? Well, see the video.

Do you still think it is absurd? No, it is not completely absurd. There is a non zero probability of such thing unless we come up with some better solutions.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Homesick

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

[MercyMe - Undone' 2004][Youtube]

Today is the last day of my holidays. So far boring holidays! Not much things to do. I was kind of dormant. Anyway, it was necessary. I have to do lot of things before the class starts. So it is time to start. Let see how far I can go in this semester. I am expecting more workload in this semester because I have one extra course.

One interesting thing, day-by-day I am becoming more homesick. This is not good. I have to handle my homesickness gracefully. I will! I know I will! I have to…

Friday, January 2, 2009

অচল প্রেমের পদ্য - ১০

হয়তো তোমাকে হারিয়ে দিয়েছি
নয় তো গিয়েছি হেরে
থাক না ধ্রুপদী অস্পষ্টতা
কে কাকে গেলাম ছেড়ে।

[হেলাল হাফিজ]

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year’ 2009!

I went to St. Martin last year to celebrate New Year. I had started 2008 in St. Martin and ended here in Norman. This one year makes so many differences in my life. I have met a guy here; he always says America makes us old very quickly. I found it true, it is very true. You have to be careful enough in every step. America teaches me life is not all about bohemianism. My America life is a gift of Year 2008.

"I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be"

For am man like me 2008 was great. I have met so many people from different places. I came to know so many different things and places. But in return, it gives me the absolute solitude. I am starting New Year’ 2009 with this eternal loneliness. One thing I learn from my entire life is: life is all about how I live it. Some people have with extraordinary capability of being happy. For rest it’s just a hell no matter where you are and what you are doing. Still we dream, we dream for better tomorrow. Maybe it keeps us alive, it keeps us moving, it is life; real life. Happy New Year’ 2009!