Saturday, September 29, 2007

Last fifteen days

It is almost fifteen days to my exam. These fifteen days is infinitesimally small comparing to rest of my life. If these tiny time change rest of life, why don’t I pursue these fifteen days?

Monday, September 24, 2007

An eternal night

I little bit of disturb yesterday and I went to bed at almost 01:00am and right now it is 09:42am. I can’t close my eyes just for a single moment. My insomnia is now in its zenith. And that’s why I am sitting in front of computer and writing some fucking blog entries. Why can’t I sleep? Why?? Why???

If you can why can’t I?

Blog as a Window

Blog is like a window in modern life. You can see inside of other lives, their thinking, their work and lot so on through it. You can blow them down by violent storm, or make them carefree with gentle breeze with it.

What I think about this is, if you open up your window mellifluent smell from heaven may makes you blissful or odor from hell may makes you cursed. But it brings something for you. You can perceive the shriek of deprived or martinet’s brouhaha. The thing is it could foment your mind. But the closed one gives you nothing, you are just a blunt.

Feel the Spirit

I have registered for GRE at 15th Oct. May be th date seems weird to you. But you know lots of sick people are out there. I get a long vacation from my office and just remain at home to pursue GRE. What do you think(for my friends, who never think me this way...)? Wow! or Ops!

I can’t asses right now what could be the result, but I can say that I try my best. I wake up between 11 to 12 am and start reading until 5pm, then busy with friends and etc start reading again from 8pm to 3:30am next. Does it not sound enough? Probably this is the exam I tried best within last five years.

In my undergrad level I sit for any exam with at most 20 percent devotion of this. And so I can concentrate less than 20 percent. This becomes so habitual that the end of that career I can’t go for more. I was so frustrated that sometime I assuage myself by telling that this is my 100 percent. How fool I am!

I can still remember those days when I was too young to busy with such a lots of things, I can give 100 percent towards anything. But this is simply history right now. Right now I am a fucking shit.

But in the course of my GRE preparation I think I get myself back. Not 100 percent, but this is the way to back. I am lot more confident right now. I feel myself getting back. I am way to the back, I can feel that spirit, and I can feel this now.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Version 1.1, Preview

I am lucrative product for Bangladeshi outsourcing software companies. But, I don’t want to be only a software engineer and I am trying to upgrade myself and make myself a lucrative product for US universities too. This will be my version 1.1, which will fit for both US university research project as well as Bangladeshi software companies.

This 1.1 is not released yet, this is just its preview version. When my analyze says that it is possible for me to go USA, it will be approved by client and after that when I will sit for the exam like GRE it will be beta release defending upon score, finally I will opt to the released version. I wish if version 1.1 becomes hit in the market, and the targeted market for 1.1 is US universities, but it will cover all version 1.0 feature.

Bonus feature, “always with clean shaved” is added with version 1.1. These feature already passed the QA cycle. Another UI related feature may add with the final release. Hopefully version 1.1 released to the public market at the end of the December’ 2007.

How do I assess myself?

How do I assess myself? Most complicated question. No I will not assess myself here in detail. I just discuss with an interesting point.

I myself portray as product. I am product from Bangladesh University of Engineering and Technology. And probably the customer is Bangladeshi software companies. So, I releases at November 2006. As many other product in the market I should have a version number. So, my current stable version number is 1.0. And day by day I will be more experienced and my version number will be upgrade. May be I will be suitable for other sophisticated customers.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Dependency & Responsibility

I never feel that I am capable to carry out any kind of responsibilities. In fact I hate responsibilities. Dependency is the term directly related to responsibilities. If you cannot carry out any responsibilities then you should not create any kind of dependency. If someone is dependent on you then you must take those responsibilities, to carry out this dependency. So that, I always try to do everything in such a way that no one will depend me any way.

Topu Bhai my project manager is a very shrewd person. He is infamous for his chocolate, an esoteric noun in KAZ software. Every time he got a new task, he made a tasteful chocolate with that job and gets done by anyone of our office. He believes that the office should not have any enslavement, without any one the office will run smoothly.

I take long time leave for GRE, from 15th September to 9th October. But at the very first day of my leave I have to come office, because our client has change some requirement, according to topu bhai it cannot be done without concern of myself. This is situation is very much digressing for me as an Engineering. I don’t why topu bhai allowed such a dependency on me. This is not acceptable from a project manager like him.

There are some people who believe that, make his surroundings dependent on him, and he will govern over everyone, a Europe like strategy. I never like such a strategy. I never want a single dependent person on me.

I am a reckless person. I want to carry this hastiness with myself until my death. Because this is the spirit of live this is the goal of my life. I want it push to the limit. I never want these sorts of dependency. I just say… “free me, free me, free me…”

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Tree Grid View

One of the works I have accomplished in KAZ is Tree Grid View. Our client wants a control which is composed of tree as well as grid simultaneously. First we decide to buy such a control. But unfortunately we don’t find any control like that. So, I have to build it for us. This is not a very tricky work or very interesting one, but it may useful for other who needs such a control.

This is basically a grid view with its leftmost column with tree behavior. So that you get all tree behavior in left column and other column will show value according to left one. I left a version for future enhancement. If you have such a bizarre requirement then you can try out this without building from scratch.


Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Seminar : Metamorphic worm detection

Today I have to take a seminar on “Metamorphic worm detection”. Basically, until today’s morning I knew nothing about worm detection, metamorphic worm detection is far away from me. But I sit for small R&D and found lot of information is available. And at the end of the day I found this topic interesting. I guess I am enthusiastically interested work on such an interesting topic little more. I attach my slide show with this entry. I found it interesting, may be you…?



(none of the experiment is accomplished by me, I am just a collector)

Sunday, September 9, 2007

null == object || object == null

Is there any difference between them ?

My findings is there is no significance difference between them in case of C#,

But in case of C++ they have a very significant difference. If the above object have overloaded equals operator and if the second parameter does not filtered with NULL check then it will get NullReferenceException for the second expression. But in case of first expression it will not. The same error can be produces in JAVA with the help of method Equals. But the first one is always safe and I prefer this one.

Pursuit of GRE

At last I can persuade myself that GRE will bring something new to my life. So, now I am pursuit for a good GRE score. So I am preparing for GRE. This part of life may be called pursuit of GRE. I don’t know what it will bring to my life, it relief myself from being frustrated for this very short time. I don’t know how long it will work out but it work out now very fine. And as far I guess I am very fine now.

I have a short time goal now; I am trying to achieve it. This is my current life. Most of times are occupied by this bloody fucking GRE preparation. But overall I am enjoying it. Let see what is wait for me in the following days. :)