Far from Home

When this post will be published, maybe I’ll be far from home, maybe somewhere over Pacific Ocean. I am in pursuit of a new life a completely new life, who care about either it is bad or good. When I was at my home I had a life, a lifestyle and now I am going for a new one which is completely different from my last twenty seven years. This is what I have achieved after last one year of time and labor. Probably this is what I was seeking for. Now I have got it.

I don’t know what is waiting for me; nobody knows what is waiting for him tomorrow. But I have a stable life; I have a stable here life in Bangladesh. I have a good job, I have my family here. Leaving all them behind I am going for a new life, I am going for a complete uncertainty. Sometime I asked myself, what the hell I am looking for. What the hell I am pursuing? Anyway I don’t want to bother you with this kind of question because probably they don’t have any answers.

My new odyssey starts today. I don’t know when it will come to an end, nobody knows. Maybe, one day will come when it will be too old to me. Maybe I’ll go for a new one and this cycle continues. And this cycle continues until I tired or died. lolz…

Version 2.0, Beta

This is the newest of its version history. It has left a long way behind it. It had become a product when it had started marketing for itself. This is where it has tried to get in. And finally it has prepared itself for its long time vision. This version designed for the alien life style. It is very hopeful with this version at least it is better than any other version before it. At least it is supposed to be so. Anyway this is a major change in the product’s life cycle so the major version number has been changed. It will be released very soon with few brand new features. Feature list will be disclosed very soon. Keep eye on its timeline.

Still I've to

I am spending last few days at home. I have lot of things to do, but I don’t have much time for that and I don’t have enough enthusiasm for that as well. But there are things I must do before I leave Dhaka.

I’ve to say good bye to pixie in person.
I’ve to say good bye to her parents.
I’ve to say good bye to few of my friends obviously in person.
I’ve to say good bye to few of relatives obviously in person.
I’ve few pending businesses with Mamun Bhai.
I’ve to see grandfathers and grandmothers.
I’ve to surrender my credit cards.
I’ve to decide about my bank accounts, finalize other suitable way for the future transactions.
I’ve to buy few souvenirs for professors.
I’ve to make thousands of ph call to say good bye.
(My be few items are missed (not intentionally) and I omit the most obvious few(s) (intentionally))

Most of the things are socializing as I am not good at socializing I keep these tasks pending for last few days. Anyway hopefully I’ll complete all of them by these days. Anyway If I can’t see you in person then this is not because I forgot you this is because of my style. My shopping is not completed yet!!!

Human Odyssey

When I had completed my undergraduate and started a job, I thought my odyssey came to an end. But now I feel how fool I was to thought like that way. Human’s odyssey starts with his born and ends with his death and in mean time they only change their camouflages to fool him. It got different faces at different stages of life. My odyssey starts with my first holler and will be end with my last breath. Human’s odyssey can’t be terminating.

When start my first job after my undergrad I was happy enough. I was happy with my job, with my career and other stuffs. My life was steady. But within very few months it became boring. I know there is no solution for these kinds of funny, silly feelings. Obviously they are not professional. But most important think was I always felt that I was not doing what I was supposed to do. This was kind of disgruntled which pushes me to seek for a new life: life which will different from my experience, different from my thoughts. And this way now I am here; here at the edge of a new life, start of a new odyssey.

One day I will die, I will die leaving some incomplete tasks, may be in the middle of a new pursuit. Could you please tell where it will be end? Life is an interesting equilibrium; it can mediate any kind of external perturbation. Sometime I feel like somewhere someone has a plan, plan with you and me and he is making his works done using us. We have very few things to do. We are completely helpless.

Busy Days

I become very busy these days. For some reason I became very busy after getting my VISA. My father wants me to see few of our relatives in person. So I have to visit their house. I am too busy to get enough time to write anything. It is almost one week I got my VISA in hand. Let me think what I have done last week…

I have visited few of our relatives place. This is little bit embarrassing experience. I am never good at socializing. So I always avoid visiting their house but this time I am undone. And the most embarrassing part is they treat me as something special! It’s very difficult to persuade them that I am not. Anyway this is not a big deal.

I have asked all my friends to come to my place. I guess it was a nice party. Adnan, Jamee, Zafar and Tanvir spend the whole night here. It was nice get together. I hope everybody enjoy the get together. Hasib, Rassel and me had arranged another party at BUET café. We had invited all of our friends, seniors, juniors and mates. It was also a great get-together of so many known faces probably the largest after our under graduate.

I attended Munni’s (one of my cousin) wedding party. It was very informal and only very close family friends were invited. Anyway she was one of favorite cousin and she is the dejected one I have ever seen. Probably this is why I loved her so much. Anyway best of luck for her new married life and I wish her all the best always.

Last week I confirmed my final Itinerary from Dhaka to Oklahoma City and the rest is up to Sagor Chowdhury. I have confirmed all my tickets and other stuffs. I prepared the papers for immunization also and took necessary vaccine. So I am officially prepared for the 30^th July. If everything goes by peace then next Wednesday is my last day here in Bangladesh.

Last week I went for shopping almost every day. This is what I never liked. I had always tried to abdicate these kinds of things to others like my mom and dad. But this time no way out. I bought lot of clothing and other necessary stuffs. Probably I have to go for shopping next few days as well (save me!!!).

So, days are now very busy. I am busy with lot of worthless stuffs and I am very tired. Now I am looking for a break so I am planning for a tour. I am not pretty hopeful about that but I will try my best. Let’s see what’s waiting on next days.

Itinerary

I have confirmed my end to end itinerary tonight. If everything remains fine these will be my final schedule. Here is my itinerary in detail.

01:25, 31th July (Dhaka) – 07:25, 31th July (Hong Kong) by Dragon Air, Flight KA111
13:20, 31th July (Hong Kong) – 11:25, 31th July (Los Angeles) by Cathay Pacific, Flight CX884
18:45, 31th July (Los Angeles) – 23:40, 31th July (Oklahoma City) by United Airlines, Flight 6116

All times are in local time for the specified place. Hopefully everything will be fine…

Giant Minds

BUET is the best institution in Bangladesh. Probably nobody will oppose me. Few other institutions get some smart guys but not that much extend. Best boys and girls from all over the country gathered here for their undergraduate studies. In this sense BUET is just got lucky and so I. I see so many intellectual people together in BUET. I see the giant minds of our time, here in BUET. But I regret say I see them confused, very very confused!

None of them knows what they are doing or what they will do after five years without few exceptions. They don’t have any specific plan for their life or career. Now we are in a materialistic society. Rat race is every where! Every where in life! We know very well that are also in this rat race but what we don’t know is how far we wanna go. These are the giant minds of our time and they are confused; what an irony?

If anybody asked me to say something about BUET guys the first thing I will say, “They are confused.” This is not big problem for them when they are in Bangladesh. Because in Bangladesh they can overcome any hurdle with help of their greatest intellect. Anyway, this is not our topic today! I have tried a lot to find out the reason behind whole thing. But I can’t make any conclusion. I guess so many things are responsible for this. Individually they all are very innocuous; I can’t blame any of them solemnly. Collectively they are dodgy.

This is not only in BUET. This is the scenario everywhere in Bangladesh specifically for our generation. May be this is the time of confusion, everybody is confused. Even our leaders are confused about what to do and what to not so why not they?

USA VISA

At last my VISA story came to an end. I got my VISA in hand. I got my VISA in hand after thirty-seven days from my VISA interview. By these times they called me thrice and I called them twice. They issued me VISA for five years. Consular suggested me that, “Your VISA is approved and additional administrative task is required and we will contact you as soon as our additional administrative task will finish.” I got that final call after thirty-seven days. This is one of the longest times taken for additional administrative task for anybody. Anyway I am not dazed, this is pretty much usual for me and one of my friends (guess who?). Now everything is going in peace. My odyssey here in Bangladesh came to an end by getting my VISA. Wish me best of my luck for the next of my voyage.

Vaccination

I took the vaccine for MMR (Measles, Mumps and Rubella) today. This is a state of Oklahoma immunization requirement. Basically children of 2-10 months are immunized with this kind of vaccine but my mom and dad didn’t immunize me with this vaccine. So I have to take it right now. Another interesting thing is different state of USA has different immunization requirement. I am thinking about taking all kind of vaccines (Tuberculosis, Polio etc ) from here so that I would go anywhere in USA. All I have to do is sort out the list of diseases and I will take their vaccine one by one.

Another problem is in my country our government doesn’t maintain any information about anybody. So I don’t have that chronological information about my early age so it is difficult for me to sort out the name vaccines pushed into my body and my parents managed to forget it completely. So I am planning to take them again, lolz, what else I can do?

I took the vaccine from Monwara General Hospital. Doctor suggested me that this vaccine is complete immunization for MMR. This is the vaccine they used for women before their pregnancy. They used it for me, sounds funny, isn’t it! Hopefully I would manage them for the other diseases too. They will manage something for me. lolz...

Something can’t be undone

Things are not like before. We all are changing. Our lives have changed a lot. Time has come to say good bye, good bye to some old feelings, some old philosophies. This is so obvious so better is to realize it quickly. Six years! Quite a long time, we spend it all together, we waste it all together. I would like to say sorry to all of my friends if I hurt them consciously or unconsciously. Some time I feel like we are not friend anymore may be we are old mate may be something else but not friend. May I am mistaken but I don’t know what makes me feel like this way.

Now we don’t have any time for each other. I would not condemn anyone, this is real life. This is what was supposed to be happening. I would like to thank you for the voyage we carried out together in the most important part of life. We are not kid anymore. Sometime I forgot that I am adult enough I should care about my words. Silly juvenile remarks are no more appropriate for us. Anyway, I am sorry and I will be careful from next time if I get the true next time. May be I would not get any.

BTTB

If you are an internet user probably you heard about fiber-optics cut in somewhere in main internet backbone line. This is a common scenario, may be twice or thrice in a month. BTTB is root controller of the bandwidth in our country. They maintain our main fiber-optics backbone. They feel like it is their kindness that they are providing us internet. How could one imagine they will continue their business depending on such an organization? Nobody can image what is our government organization unless he sees it. The propitious part of the story is recently government sells it in public market.

I went to BTTB office today(actually it is our telephone office). BTTB is for Bangladesh Telegraph and Telephone Board. This is the first time I went there. BTTB is a government organization so like other government organization in our country it is also a complete mess. I went there to register three sub domains under .bd. It will take ten fifteen days to open a sub-domain under .bd. I guess the time to open root domain .bd took much less.

Few days before one of my friends asked me if I want to register any sub-domain under .com. He told he would do that for free. BTTB will do the same things and they will take ten days, funny! There was another interesting thing, they supplied me a paper regarding terms and condition and it got twenty four rules! This stupid, very stupid!!! This is our government organization. I found myself stupid when I thought one day they will be organized.

Early Youth...

Romanticism came along with the youth in my life. I was very romantic at my early days of youth. It was tremendous! Tremendous: in a sense of strength, madness, bohemianism, love and what not. I was born at commencement of a new century. That time our country was undertaken by longest ruling junta of our country. After that we have got two consecutive democratic government from two different parties with full of corruption just before the start of this century. We have got one thing along with our independence like my romanticism is corruption.

I see frustration; frustration in everyone’s eye, in every face. It was the time when our young generation became mad of self-annihilation. So my romanticism got its host so was I. There are very few things in the heaven and earth that I hadn’t tried at that time and gradually I was distracted from my goal. Still I am lamenting for those days. That was my early youth my golden days and I spoil them entirely. At the same time I am proud of those days because they taught me how survive. At that time I came to know about different parts of our real world that was completely unknown to me until those days.

"Youth is not the time of a life; youth is the state of a mind."

One more thing which came almost at the same time is love along with a woman. It was beautiful, it was mournful, it was like a dream went away within fraction of second. I guess it is a very insignificant part comparing to my whole life but a major part of my youth was occupied by my childish dream. Ultimately that relationship didn’t work but it left few memories and few nightmares.

It was full of loosing, losing my virtues one after another, losing my track, losing relatives and most important losing my happiness permanently. I guess I will never be happy again. I lost a lot in return I learn a lot but most the things are not for my track. Surely I could use it some better way but I guess what happened was the compulsory of point in time. I have spent very small part of my youth still long way to go. I don’t know what is waiting for me tomorrow? I am still too young to vow not to waste anymore but I can assure I will not make the same mistake again. Wish me best of luck for my coming days.

Wallpaper!!!

I guess this is pretty interesting, isn’t it?