Recent Unemployment Problem

Within last few days I received few mails from newly graduate students. All of them are asking for jobs. I feel they are little bit worry about jobs and at the same time they are afraid. Ok let start from BUET. Batch’02 completes their undergraduate last month now they are in job market. According to their information fifty percent of them get suitable job and rest are looking for one. Is it the usual scenario? I guess not. When we complete our undergraduate most of us get suitable jobs except few variants before our results. I guess the percentage was more than ninety. I don’t have exact data about batch’01; I guess they were closer to us.

Now, is there anything wrong? Well this is a big question. I suggest we are producing more computer engineer than we required. Actually we don’t need such a big number. So the new engineers are facing the obvious repercussions, Unemployment Problem. Is that a desired situation for us? It can’t be.

I figure few reasons for their sufferings. I am not pretty sure, either you agree or not. First of all we complete our undergraduate at November 2006 after that Batch’01 complete there undergraduate and now Batch’02. So three batch complete their under graduation within last one year. So here is temporary inundation of skilled computer engineers. There was no session for graduate studies in between; lots of peoples are waiting for fall’2008. I guess this problem will reduce significantly after that.

The second thing is alarming! In our country we don’t have any large software organization. Few of the telecommunication companies are the first choice for the job seekers. Most of our software companies are based on outsourcing. The alarming thing is outsourcing is not growing at its previous pace. Most of our outsourcing based companies just stuck. Few companies are running out of work. At the same time telecommunication organization are saturated. I am not sure about what happens on coming years?

Few days ago, “Computer Science is going down Nationally and Internationally” was a title of the conversation in our group. Everybody express their ideas on favor of this. So it must have some truth. If you spend time on internet you will find hundreds of article about dot com crush. These are not good signs. Personally, I always feel that hey-day of Computer Programmer still far away. But, most of the intellects do not support me on that occasion. I feel we will reach our zenith when hardware industry overcomes their shortcomings.

Anyway, I hope this Unemployment Problem is very temporary and I expect we guys will try our best for our followers in current situation.

Admission Application!!!

Things are going typically in fact not very fine. I have completed four applications. I am little bit afraid about the number. Usually students from our university send fifteen to twenty. Comparing to them my performance is very very poor. May be I will send one or two more and the rest up to admission committee. Actually I am tired of it and I decide not do any more. I covet you guys will pray for me. This time once again I prove I can never be good at marketing :-( Anyway let see what happened.

Software Engineering

Software Development is kind of weird job. The most interesting it is never ending job. No requirement is final; nothing is vital; easy going pretty mundane job, variation less life. It is my third year in professional software development. Interestingly I found very few new things in my little career.

I am working on a product from last year. I work for Blue Cielo ECM solutions. What I am doing? The early face of the product was very interesting because we build it from the scratch. After that I am enhancing that one. There is a very specific framework and I don’t have to think for any kind of enhancement. I am just doing because I have to, because I am supposed to. It seems like an eternal project that never ends.

Sometime I feel every software company should have two set of teams, one team build the software from scratch and other will take over after a certain time and do the further enhancement. This is very frustrating to work in single product for a long time.

From my experience very few percent of time in software development is interesting, rest of the part are too boring. Anyway, if you are a software engineer then you know all these very well. Not much challenge exists in software engineering. Sometime I feel this is a profession for dead(!) man who need no charm, who are afraid to take new challenges.

My organization is not big enough but I don’t think that scenario is different in large organization like Google or Microsoft. I am very young guy, I start my career. This is my high time to take new challenge, new risk but don’t get any. Young guys in software engineering ask yourselves, are you taking that much challenges to your limit? Are pushing yourselves to the limit? If you never push yourself to the limit then how could you know your limit? If you don’t know your limit then you never know yourself.

Aziz Mian

One thing I missed in my last post about my last tour, “Aziz Mian”. At first glance he seems a bluffer, he exploit tourists and so on. I met him at Jaflong. He is a Rikshaw puller in his professional life. Tentatively, he is twenty to twenty three years old. I met him at weird place. When we reached Jaflong I got a pee, I was looking for a toilet. Aziz Mian show me the way to a toilet. He got a peculiar facial structure. My English is not that much good to describe Aziz Mian.

Anyway Aziz Mian starts his conversation with me by making me conscious about fraudulent. Finally he wants to stay with us for the rest of the time. By the time we figure him as an interesting character, he is indeed. So we took him with us for the rest of the time we stay at Jaflong. We found him as a good company. He shows us every different place. We were aware of tourist places, lot of people stay there just to exploit tourists. We consider Aziz Mian as one of them. We brought up in such a society that, it is difficult for us to consider anybody innocent. We never see the innocence in our surroundings.

We were mistaken. He is not that kind of guy. He is such a simple man with minimum expectation. Even he was ashamed to take money from us at the time of goodbye. I see the true innocence in his face. I will remember Jaflong for a long time just because Aziz Mian. His expression, intension, passion, and love everything was so innocent that we couldn’t but loved him.

He is garrulous in nature. Hasib and I send Rassel to keep him busy. We notice an important similarity among them, Both of them like tribal girls ;-). They chat about tribal girls, their life style, etc. Anyway he made our Jaflong experience colorful. When we were getting back from Jaflong I give him a hug, that was more than he expects and he starts crying. We were very embarrassed. If you ever go to Jaflong and meet Aziz Mian, tell him that I still remember him. One thing I am missing right now while writing this post, is Aziz Mian's photograph.

Social Networking Sites

Facebook is the place for weird, freak peoples. I login into facebook when I am very very pissed off. I perform few random things and quit from there. Basically I never liked any kind of social networking site as I don’t like television, radio etc. They are designed for sick those don’t have any thing to do. These are just waste of valuable energy. Just think how much time you spend for your social networking site, in return what you get? These social networking sites are just a media. I guess they will be the largest media of next decade but surely I will never like them. Interesting thing is almost every day I heart about a new social networking site; they are growing like mushroom.

Pixie Story never ends

I thought that the pixie story is over. But I was wrong pixie is still alive somewhere in my mind. Pixie is still resides somewhere in my city. How can I forget that pixie story? Pixie stories never ends; they remain in eternal space of time. They strike sometime like lightening. They remain alive. After long fucking years she is back in my life. I know the signs. I can hear her footsteps. I can’t resist. I am undone. This is my weakest point in the universe. I don’t know what to do. She makes me scattered every time she comes in my life. May be this is because I still love her may be something else. This is the only thing I can never deal with; this is the story where nobody can help me.

I will be fine if you never come again, I know I will be happier than ever if you come again. But please don’t make our life more complicated, Please keep them simple. Anyway let see what happens on coming days!!!

Difficulties with session from ContentHandler

Today, I had faced few difficulties on getting session from my content handler. Actually by default it does not have any session. You have to enable session for it which is pretty simple. Juzz implement an interface.

public class ContentHandler : IHttpHandler, IRequiresSessionState

Thats all it expect to access session.

Flora & Fauna

I collect this one from Facebook. Very interesting one, I guess you would like it.

Search Engine and Blog

Interesting I have noticed about search engine but I couldn’t find out the reason behind it. When I was searching for d.com virus I didn’t find any good post or suggestion. Then I find out the solution by myself and write an article about how to cure it. I guess few like that post, at least that was helpful. And most interesting thing is that article appears as first result if anyone searches with key word “d.com virus”. But after two or three days later search engine drop that article not only from top but also from the search results. And now if you search with the same keyword you will find those results that I found at very first time. I thought about it today but I could not conclude with any good explanation. Do you know how search engine deals with blog posts?

Have I Told You Lately

Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you theres no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles thats what you do

For the morning sun in all its glory
Greets the day with hope and comfort too
You fill my life with laughter
And somehow you make it better
Ease my troubles thats what you do
Theres a love thats divine
And its yours and its mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray
To the one, to the one

Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you theres no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles thats what you do

Theres a love thats divine
And its yours and its mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray
To the one, to the one

And have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you theres no one else above you
You fill my heart with gladness
Take away my sadness
Ease my troubles thats what you do
Take away all my sadness
Fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles thats what you do
Take away all my sadness
Fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles thats what you do

(Rod Stewart)

Pursuit after Squid

I am back, back from a short trip. Rassel, Hasib and I planned for a sudden & short trip. We didn’t have any specific choice; few came in our mind Banglabanda (Panchagarh), Birishiri (Netrokona), Shari River (Sylhet). Finally we decided on Shari River (Sylhet). I guess it was a nice pick; in fact it was a best pick for me because I had to go to Shari River at least once. We start on Thursday night from Dhaka by Bus because we were late for train. It took four hour to reach Main city of Sylhet.

This is my first time in Sylhet City. More or Less it is reminiscent of other Divisional Cities in Bangladesh. One thing is different than others, it is their economy. Their economy is based on two things. Their flow of economy is based on shrine related to tombs of “Hazrat Shah Shahzalal” and “Hazrat Shah Poran” and their immigrant relatives. Most of the people in Sylhet have dual citizenship one from Bangladesh and one from Britain.

So London has a great influence over their culture and Society. Basically they are conservative and sacred in nature but the influence of London makes them considerate in few cases. The immense of fashion houses, shopping centers, food shops unlike other divisional cities in Bangladesh, reflect the spirit of London. An interesting thing about new generation, they are totally confused and suffer from identity crisis. They are not Bangladeshi; they are not British; what the hell they are?

Probably I have lost the main stream; anyway we were talking about our short pleasure tour. After reaching Sylhet fist we went to tomb of “Hazrat Shah Shahzalal” then “Hazrat Shah Poran”. In the middle of the tour I felt we were in pilgrimage. Hasib and Rassel complete their morning prayer in those shrine, after that we took a bus towards Jaflong. It was fifty Kilometer from Sylhet City. We reached Jaflong at 10 am, we spend two hours there visiting tea state and ambling aimlessly. Jaflong is not as charming as its myth is.

After that we took a bus to Shari Ghat it is beside the Shari River. Our primary target was Shari River; it is less-known than other places in Sylhet. Shari got the clearest water among the rivers in Bangladesh. Its water is very near to crystal. And both side of the river was awesome! Actually it is not river right now, it become small creek in winter and Torrent River in rainy days. Actually pixie tells me about this river first. Whatever, we took a boat from there for a small tour. We spend almost two to three hours there sitting on the boat. It was a great experience. Actually Shari with the essence of pixie takes my breath away. If you are not a nature’s lover then probably these mean nothing to you. Anyway, I enjoy the whole time.

We took another bus from Shari Ghat for Sylhet. And we reached Sylhet again at 4 pm. After that we did bla… bla... bla… And so on. I can’t write anymore. The most important thing from rest of our tour was tea state… … …

We got a great combination; we went lot of places without preparation in our university life. It is our first tour after completion our undergrad. In that sense it is our get together. And I guess as a get together it was very very successful. We select the name “Pursuit after Squid” for this tour. Actually I don’t why they know better than me. Let keep the matter for them…………. lolz… ;-)

What is my blog?

This is a good question. I guess you get good view of my scattered life from my blog. You get vivid picture of my depressed, frustrated life. Am I depressed? Frustrated? Long ago pixie asked me the same question. I replied no I don’t. There is no room for frustration or depression in my life. At that time I didn’t feel like now.

I am not frustrated or depressed, I am confused. I am confused about my goal, about my destiny overall about my life. I always feel I am doing such things which I am not supposed to. Then what the hell I supposed to do? Even I don’t find that answer. And this is why my posts are sarcastic in nature. They are confused as I am. People who don’t like these sorts of writing don’t waste your valuable time here.

This is my personal blog. I don’t have any intention to help other people through this. I just maintain a virtual life here. If anyone benefitted from my posts that will be great, I don’t mind on that occasion but don’t expect any kind help or suggestion from here or any kind of good stuffs. I hope I am clear from my point of view, may be it could hurt you but I am undone and little bit of rude as well.

Hit Post!!!

Though I had started with technical writing, I didn’t write any notable technical article for quite a long time. The major reason might be I am more comfortable with this sort of diversified writing. Few days ago I get aware of Google Analytic. This is traffic information about your site. From Google Analytics I get to know that most of my blog readers come through technical post, interesting!

And the most interesting thing happened today. My Computer is affected with a virus and I didn’t find any antivirus for that. So try remove it by myself and successfully I remove it. After that I write a how to article to do that and upload to my blog. Almost ten hour have past after that post and I get almost two hundred visitors. But I guess that was the worst post within last few days. And few of the visitors leave their thanks on that. I think technical posts are the hit posts these days. Whatever I learn the trick!!!

Cure d.com, amvo.exe, amvo0.dll Virus...

My drives inundated with d.com and autorun.inf. Is this a virus? I don’t know. I have tried with avast, macfee, avg, but none of them detect it as a virus. The main problem I detect it put d.com and autorun.inf in every drive. I tried with filemon to sort out who is the writer? I found explorer itself is the writer. So I guess it is a shell extension. I open a shell extension viewer and disable all extensions as I can’t recognize which one is responsible for all this. Then kill explorer process with procmon and start explorer again. So no shell extension is loaded this time. Now don’t open your explorer. Using other file browser which doesn’t use explorer engine I delete all the d.com, autorun.inf, amvo.exe and amvo0.dll. Last two will be found at WIN_DIR/shell32 folder. Now my PC is clean. That fucking shit is no more active. Now I am trying to sort out which shell extension is responsible for this. As soon as I sort out this hopefully you need not disable all shell extensions. Until you have to disable all of them. I will be grateful if anyone knows the shell extension name. I upload downloadable version of the programs I used.

Islam between East and West

I finished another book today, “Islam between East and West” by Alija Izetbegović former president of Bosnia and Herzegovina. He tries to depict the essence of Islam on perspective of humanity. Here the writer shows the contrast between materialistic life and spiritual life and the most obvious repercussion that human beings are composed of both of these. We cannot be fully materialistic like prey and predator in wild life again we cannot be angel as well. We need someone to condemn, we need something to pray.

This is the age of mediocre; all things are approaching towards middle compromising few ideologies from both extreme. Writer shows how communism accounts spiritual values and catholicism values materialistic life, both of them approaching middle. And finally he tries to say Islam is the composed of both of these from the very beginning of its history. He tries to show the evolution of Catholicism towards Islam and the same to Communism.

Another most remarkable thing that I found interesting is his definition about humanity. Humanity is something that helps human being to decide against himself which is merely impossible for a machine or an animal. And there are few other essays on Culture, Civilization, idealism and so on. Overall I suggest it as a good read.

I miss my dairy

In my early days I was habituated to maintain diary. I wrote diary from my early days. I had an interesting idea about that. I maintained few of them and I kept different names for them as well. They were my best friends as I am by born introvert at that time. Few names were “Shanjibona”, “Putlu” and so on. I wrote different content on different diary. It is quite a long time didn’t write my diary. Are the replaced with these things? May be, may be not. They were something different from this kind of stuffs, something different to me. Nothing can replace my dairy.

I keep them in my desk and now-a-days they laughed at me because I leave them alone. Yesterday, brought out few of them, I don’t know I feel they ask me lot of questions; so lot that I can deal with them. I am that selfish shit who left them alone in a corner of my desk. They were living being for me but I feel now they are alone like me. Why I become so busy that I can’t keep some time for them? Am I really that much busy or I just ignore them? I can’t remember when and how I start to ignore them but now I am million mile away from them.

I see people talked about the blog; they think blog is replacement of dairy. Is it that so? I guess no and never. Dairy has different appeal that blog can never meet. Blog can’t be the replacement of your dairy. It is just marketing, marketing of you and your soul. When I wrote dairy, I never expect anyone to read them even I didn’t allow. But now I expect few reader of my blog, may I am hypocrite when I say “Ohh! You read my blog, I never expect anyone.” If I don’t expect anyone then I never used Google analytics in the bottom of my blog. If I don’t expect truly then why this is for? Funny! We all are hypocrites, we make hypocrisy with ourselves.

I never think blog as friend which is true for my dairy. Then how this can be a replacement of my dairy? I am busy with other stuff like social networking site. This is another funny thing and total shit. I miss my days, my days with my dairies. I want back those days; I know I never get back…

Interesting Evening, as well

First get out of my office and resolve that I-Pill issue; I collect it and handover that stuffs without any hazards. By the time I became fully aware of that stuff. And finally I am happy with my performance, I handle the situation keenly. It was a different experience I never encounter before. As I love to handle diversified situation I enjoy this time, but I guess I will not enjoy this anymore. I guess it will be irritating for me if it happened again.

Anyway after that I went BUET café and serendipitously more surprise was waiting for me there. I acquainted Mr. Rajib there. What a great surprise, He is cousin of Mr. Rana. And he is elder brother of one of my student named Trisha. Mr. Rana and Mr. Rajib is kind of guy I never forgive. They had enormous impact on my vagrant life. I know very well about my cantankerousness and so I always avoid these guys but today I can’t control myself from raillery. I knew very well that he don’t have any other alternative except absorb them. Whatever the evening was interesting too. I predict few interesting things today and all these make it true.

I'm Going To Slightly Mad

When the outside temperature rises
And the meaning is oh so clear
One thousand and one yellow daffodils
Begin to dance in front of you - oh dear
Are they trying to tell you something ?
You're missing that one final screw
You're simply not in the pink my dear
To be honest you haven't got a clue
I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad
It finally happened - happened
It finally happened - ooh woh
It finally happened - I'm slightly mad - oh dear !
Ha ha ha ha ha

I'm one card short of a full deck
I'm not quite the shilling
One wave short of a shipwreck
I'm not my usual top billing
I'm coming down with a fever
I'm really out to sea
This kettle is boiling over
I think I'm a banana tree
Oh dear
I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad (I'm going slightly mad)
It finally happened - happened
It finally happened - uh huh
It finally happened - I'm slightly mad - oh dear !

Uh uh ah ah
Uh uh ah ah

I'm knitting with only one needle
Unravelling fast it's true
I'm driving only three wheels these days
But my dear, how about you ?
I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad
It finally happened
It finally happened - oh yes
It finally happened - I'm slightly mad !
Just very slightly mad !
And there you have it !

(Queen)

Interesting Morning

Today is an interesting day in my mundane life. I wake up with a phone call by Babu. We have few chat, recall few memories and so on. The most interesting thing happened after that. I was requested by a phone call to buy I-Pill (I don’t want to mention the name). Unfortunately I am not aware of these kinds of stuffs. I went few medicine corners and ask for that stuff. Yesterday I didn’t back my home so I am wearing “Panjabi” that I wore to attend dew’s wedding ceremony. Actually this is kind of cloth that Bangladeshis wore at their wedding ceremony or to attend these king of festivals. So, I am wearing that Panjabi stuff and looking for that sort of Pill from store to store. This is quite an embarrassing situation but I enjoyed that. Everybody is looking at me weirdly and they think ishhhh… “You should prepare for these sorts of situations”. See the coincident Dew get married yesterday and I am looking for I-Pill today not Dew. I guess more is waiting for me today…………. lolz. I am enjoying enthusiastically………………….. lolz. Actually I am not enjoying, I am thrilled…………

Am I Google freak?

Today I don’t have many things to do so I lay supine on my bed and thinking randomly. At that time Google comes in my mind. Definitely I owe Google. I use almost all services from Google. It is not like playing once or few more, I use them randomly. Now I use few of them just because Google served these. I don’t have much trust on other like Google. I don’t know why? But it’s true. See few days before Microsoft come up with a beta product LiveSpace. What I did? I just try it once then I back to my previous one named Box.net. But is case of Google I might switch to new one. Most enormous feature that like is their simplicity. Their interfaces are so simple that you have to have tried it at least once.

I have a hotmail account from 1999 and I have gmail account from 2003. Eventually gmail account becomes my main email account. Now I check my hotmail account once in a week which full junk mail with messy interface. I use Blogger, Calendar, Google Docs, Gmail, Google Groups, Orkut, Picasa, GTalk, Google Translate, YouTube, Googlepages, Notebook, Google Reader, Google Analytics and the legendary search engines. Even I use Gmail solution for custom domain. Few days ago I installed Google Web Accelerator just because this is a Google product. This is Google who brings all these for me. Even I dream to be a part of Google Development Team. So what do you think? Am I Google freak?

Dew, One of my best friends...

Dew is going to marry tomorrow. He is the first from our coterie. So this is a significant event for all of us. He is our long time friend almost from our college life. We have shared lot of time together. Still we are very good friend. I can see those days; Dew is sleeping in my bed with his big, open eyes. Usually Dew’s eyes remain open when he sleeps we made lot of jokes with that. I can remember those sleepless nights in Bakshi Bazar, Shahid Minar, etc. He is going to start a new life a new era. At the begging of out university life we made a forum, the theme was no proprietorship over member’s wives. Dew feels ashamed recalling those kid-like-thoughts. His fiancé is a Civil Engineer from BUET just completes her undergrad. I wish them a very very very …………. happy conjugal life. Eventually we all will get married one by one within few years, dew's wedding is the harbinger of that. Days are changing; they are changing very quickly; so quickly that I am struggling to cope with it.

The journey that starts here who knows ends where?

The journey that starts here who knows ends where? After my undergrad I got a job at KAZ Software. I was used to be carefree, cheerful life. I past my whole day sitting on rag corner gossiping, teasing with friends and so one. I traveled like gypsy. I was happy that time. I made myself busy with lot of things; spend most of my time with friends and so on. What I am doing right now? I am in my office, sitting in front of my computer and exploring the cyber world through some fucking sites. People called it real life. This is my job, lolz. If this is real one then my fake life far better than these shits. Today I am doing these for KAZ Software right now; maybe I will be doing these for your company tomorrow and the day after tomorrow for another one. Who knows?

But, I certainly know that my life is boxed between this. No variation no excitement nothing. Juzz live your life. Goalless life; no big goal, no big reason so no big impact. I will live like cockroach live from the very beginning of history. Sometime I ask myself what is the big problem with these? I always come up with one simple conclusion; maybe I can predict my future or my pretty mundane life. Is this a big problem? Yes of course because it brings frustration in my life. I am doing repetitive job for different peoples. When I enter the software industry I thought there might be something challenging, but in reality they are fake. They are just Old drinks in new bottle. And I am very very pissed off and this is main reason I pursuing higher education and such things. I know end of the day all are same but at least they make me busy for next few years.

Restless part of my Life

Few moments, from most rest less part of my life. There were very few things in haven and earth that we didn't try that time. Those times still gives me goose bump. Forgive for the worst quality but these are the best we able manage at that time.

Our Dhaka

Usually, I never write any bad about my country. This is a global portal and I don’t want to give a bad impression about my country. End of the day, this is my country, my Homeland. I love it other way I have to love it. But today I can’t but share an incident with you guys lived in Dhaka city.

Yesterday, I want to go to Mirpur. I got out of my office at 6 PM. I had to attend a meeting at 7 PM. My office is in Eskaton Garden. So I think one hour is more than enough. I am not very much habituated with public service, so I decided to pursue any private service like Taxi, Scooter or anything else. Unfortunately I had to wait for long fucking two hour for any kind of vehicle. By those times I walk along that road and I reached very near to my destination. And finally I took a Rikshaw for the rest of the path. Now, tell what is the problem with this kind of private service? Almost every time they are reluctant to go anywhere. This becomes a major problem now-a-days. You have to choose public service or personal vehicle.

I don’t know if government is aware of this fact? But this kills our plenty of time. Dhaka is vastly populated city and everybody knows about its transportation system. Day by day it is getting worse. Things will become horrible within next five years. Interestingly I never notice any major step from any government on this occasion. Either they simply ignore it or they are undone.

Blogger, Next days...

What I expect from Blogger next days? Blogger is one of the most popular blog sites. So my expectation should be high enough that matches Blogger.

First I expect is more precise spam control. No objectionable blog content. Recent I notice few blogs those are less blog than porn site or advertisement site. Interestingly I find few Bangladeshi blog sites as porn sites, funny.

Second, I am missing one feature which is, I have few mails that I want to publish in my blog. There is no easy way to do that. I hope blogger will be able to enter mail box and mark my mail as public, private and take estimated time when they will be published. Ok, What I want is pretty simple. Blogger will sort out my mail and I mark them as publish now or never or after 1 year, 2 year, 3 year and so on. Again it will be able to publish them as conversation.

Third, this is typical Google feature. I expect blogger will suggest me few blog according to my content. I know I will get it within very few days.

Lastly, I am willingly waiting for another feature that is per entry security. I will be able to set security or permission for every entry. So few my entries will public and few will be shared or private.

These are all right now in my mind. Who knows what will happen tomorrow???

Yea, I’m still Young...

I stop looking for Home,
Probably, I am getting old.

I call my mom if am late,
Probably, I am getting old.

I care about my family,
Probably, I am getting old.

I cannot be carefree,
Probably, I am getting old.

I don’t like amble at street,
Probably, I am getting old.

I back to Dad’s Home daily,
Probably, I am getting old.

I don’t like stay out,
Probably, I am getting old.

I afraid to take risk,
Probably, I am getting old.

I start to love my job,
Probably, I am getting old.

I am anxious about my employment,
Probably, I am getting old.

I don’t fall in love on first sight,
Probably, I am getting old.

I start to love myself,
Probably, I am getting old.

I start to love my assets,
Probably, I am getting old.

I am looking for settlement,
Probably, I am getting old.

I avoid unnecessary hazards,
Probably, I am getting old.

I afraid to sleep at station,
Probably, I am getting old.

I care about my life,
Probably, I am getting old.

I care about my career,
Probably, I am getting old.

I afraid to be out at rain,
Probably, I am getting old.

I am caring about my time,
Probably, I am getting old.

I don’t find any reason to laugh,
Probably, I am getting old.

I don’t argue unnecessarily,
Probably, I am getting old.

I don’t fight with other,
Probably, I am getting old.

I don’t ask,
Probably, I am getting old.

I am not waiting for Pixie,
Probably, I am getting old.

I am no more Bohemian,
yes, I am getting old.

I afraid of getting old,
surely, I am getting old.

But, still something reverberates in my head -

“Youth is not a part of life;
it is a state of mind.”

Still, I love to experiment.

Resolution: 2008

I was thinking about My New Year Resolution. Actually I am little bit late but I don’t think that it is too late to let it go. There are so many thinks to change so many things to do that I become very confused. But finally I come up with very small resolution; I want to read ten times more than previous year. And this year I will try to focus on European culture, psychology and philosophy. I like to read than anything else. Actually I spend my lonesome time with my books. And this year I decide to give them more time than before.

Psychic Vampire

In almost every case they deceive the victim that he/she is the only one whom he/she adores. They talk about lots of good things about you; make lot of plan to make your life better. But in reality they don’t care about your life. If this psychic vampire is your colleague, he/she persuade you that your work carries most value towards him, but in reality they don’t care about those too. From my experience I found them very innovative. Being Innovative is becomes a positive side for them. So they can motivate versatile type of people easily with their innovative ideas. But unfortunately with all these great excellence they bring nothing good rather they demoralize and restrain from that.

Things are being more complicated when victim and the vampire are in opposite sex or they are in love. In this case the victim feels enormous love for the vampire but in return he/she gets nothing just few fake expressions.

Most people accept these passively vicious individuals at face value only because their insidious maneuvers have never been pointed out to them. They merely accept these “poor souls” as being less fortunate than themselves, and feel that they must help however they can. It is the misdirected sense of responsibility which nourishes well the “altruism” upon which these parasites feast! The psychic vampire is allowed to exist because he cleverly chooses conscientious, responsible people for his victim-people with great dedication to their “moral obligations.”

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Google Tricks

Have you ever notice Google does not take you directly to your result sites. If you investigate with the link you will find that the link is alright. But in reality you never go through that link. Google execute a small javascript on event “onmousedown”. It changes the original link, new link directed towards Google. Then the main server redirect to your result site. Here is that javascript have a look at that.

window.rwt=function(b,d,e,g,h,f,i)
{
var a=encodeURIComponent||escape,
c=b.href.split("#");
b.href="/url?sa=t"+(d?"&oi="+a(d):"")+(e?"&cad="+a(e):"")+"&ct="+
a(g)+"&cd="+a(h)+"&url="+a(c[0]).replace(/\+/g,"%2B")+"&
ei=f3N8R_H5Do_I6gPg3LRG"+(f?"&usg="+f:"")+i+(c[1]?"#"+c[1]:"");
b.onmousedown="";
return true
};

No purpose or place

Most of the organizations are closed for Christmas and New Year. As I work on an outsourcing based Software Company I don’t have anything to do in my office right now. I just explore blogs, websites and so on. It is interesting you can explore different thoughts and views. I am a pack rat in my real life so no wonder that I would collect different content from them through my blog.

Here is an interesting quote I notice in a blog: Shuvro Rongeen. Probably this is first used in movie: Fight Club by Tyler Durden.
“We are the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no great war, no great depression. Our great war is a spiritual war. Our great depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised by television to believe that we’d be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars - but we won’t. And we’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed-off.”
This is our life. I am not gonna write any comment on that but I feel this is the most truth I ever realized in my whole life. We are the intention less creation of nature or other way No big reason to create us.

Daruchini Deep

I am back, back from Holiday, back from celebrating New Year party. I back today from Saint Martin so as usual mundane life. It was an awesome holiday. I spend most of my time ambling beside that beach full of coral reef and took few exclusive shots. Anyway I will upload my photos as soon as I download them from my camera.

We made fireworks we made beach party and so on. But its calm and quietness was beyond anything. It was so tranquil and cool that you cannot but love it. You must enjoy the mellifluous roar of Bay-of-Bengal. It was neither so loud nor so quiet just perfect. It was beyond anything what I could take, what I express. I am planning for at least one week for the next time.

I still dreaming that cool evening, it was beyond anything I can desire, beyond anything I ever perceive. I can still hear that sound of fire. It is so scenic that nothing seems to be prettier than it not even your girlfriend. I want to identify it with its most romantic name “Daruchini Deep” first used by Humayun Ahmed.